The Choice of Harmony

by Courtney on January 31, 2008

I will be getting my camera cord up to speed soon to provide some original pictures for your viewing pleasure. In the meantime, nice picture of the Chugach Mountains in Alaska, (courtesy of David Whitten), eh?

Yesterday I partook in the BBB test (Bio-Brain-Balance Test) to determine one’s metabolic/autonomic constitution and therefore optimum dietary pattern. It involves eating specific foods and administering a venipuncture blood draw once every two hours, for a total of four blood draws.

The first draw happened about 9am in the morning, after fasting for the previous 13 hours or so. The nurse had quite the hassle trying to find a vein she could actually use on me, she exclaimed that I had some of the smallest veins she’d ever seen.

Right after this blood draw, I had the next five minutes to down two apples (sugar).

Two hours later, my blood was drawn again (to see the difference after the apples). Right after this second draw, I drank a big glass of water with two tablespoons of spirulina (protein).

Two hours later, third blood draw.

Right after that was a bowl of plain lettuce, sprouts cucumbers and tomatoes with nothing else – no salt, fat, or dressing. This is the ‘carbohydrate’ portion.

Two hours later, last blood draw.

I actually don’t know my type yet because I have to wait for our lovely Dr. Ross to return from her vacation to meet with her and have her loveliness decipher my test results.

I observed how interesting it was that when I ate the apples (which, I don’t think I’ve had a whole piece of fruit since my juice feast), I felt really energized right away but then shortly thereafter I felt really, really ungrounded and couldn’t focus very well.

The minute I downed the spirulina drink I felt like I was totally back to center and grounded – It was sort of relieving, actually.

On another note…

I realized today that the last time I watched TV was sometime in fall 2005.


I’d never been a big TV watcher anyways, but it’s so interesting that it just simply is not part of my life and I don’t even think about it. It’s also extraordinary that I haven’t watched it anywhere else – many, most probably, of the people in this community do not have TV either.

I do watch movies still, but I have less and less attraction to them – these days it takes much, much more to impress me as far as movies go.

I am becoming increasingly sensitive to movie content. I feel that if a film cannot either maintain me at my current vibration or elevate it, I see no reason to watch it.

I’m more and more convicted that I simply won’t choose activities with my time that are contrary to my primary focus in life, which is also becoming more refined and convicted. In this case, I’m referring to watching films that do not support me.

And it’s funny, because I rarely feel annoyed by things, but I’ve observed perhaps the biggest annoyance I feel these days are when I feel I’ve wasted my time on a film.

In fact, if I see a movie, or even part of a movie, that causes me to feel some discord within myself, I have to immediately set to do something to return myself to where I was before the movie. I literally can’t stand to do anything else until I feel great again.

I’ve thought a lot about this change in my sensitivity, which is really quite substantial. I used to be able to watch pretty much anything and not think about it, and as soon as the movie was over, the entire film, images and feelings associated were gone.

Not anymore.

It’s often that I turn down movies others say are amazing, and often that I don’t finish movies I’ve started.

There are some amazing, amazing movies out there and how I LOVE watching movies that make me feel good. Movies, like books, can open up whole new concepts and worlds to us, inspire us and motivate us. I love those movies, and my conviction to watch only those kinds of movies is ever becoming stronger.

I view my energetic field as more sacred – I recognize that we are always absorbing information and vibration from everything we are exposed. Everything is a form of nutrition – we intake, on some level, everything we see, hear, smell, feel, and experience. All of this is a choice for what we are choosing to feed ourselves.

I feed my body the best food ever, why wouldn’t I feed myself the best ever stuff in every other way? Why would I choose to feed it violence, or malice, or betrayal, or anything else I don’t choose for myself?

Our subconscious doesn’t really have any defense, and maybe that’s what I’m feeling. While our minds can rationalize ‘This is just a movie,’ or whatever, there is a more subtle, sensitive part of us that is totally permeable. We take everything into our field and it continues to resonate there.

I also have grown into viewing my time as more sacred than I ever have before – a incredible gift that I want to accept and, with immense gratitude, utilize as an opportunity for creation. I want the gift of my time for only those activities that elevate myself and others, help me to grow and express more of myself, live harmoniously and intentionally, and be of use for my friends, family and the world.

So in case you’re wondering, I won’t be seeing Rambo.


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{ 6 comments… read them below or add one }

Linda in the Raw February 2, 2008 at 7:03 am

Beautiful, beautiful post Courtney. Just lovely!


Suki February 2, 2008 at 9:20 am

thank you thank you for SO beautifully sharing your growth with the world! I hear you on the movies (TV i can’t even be in the same room as) – i went this week & kept feeling like i was being sucked into the screen, i could feel it so deeply. took me a while to get to sleep that night.. Love you xx


shannonmarie February 2, 2008 at 8:14 pm

I won’t be seeing Rambo either, although I do have an awful habit on seeing a film through once I’ve started, no matter how bad it is.

That test really sounds interesting. I like that you get to eat whole foods in between draws, unlike the yucky artificial concoctions used for various other tests.

Thanks for adding me to your blogger list. I need to update mine.


wyldegirl February 4, 2008 at 12:02 am

I feel the exact same way regarding movies and television. . . and have since i was little (which my family loved about me) but my peers definitely used to give me a hard time and say i was “too sensitive”. . . i remember in high school the one and only horror movie i ever saw (and i was tricked into it!) made my life nightmarish for about six months. so never again. . . and i find myself lately starting films and turning them off within a few minutes, it takes a very very good movie to keep my attention nowadays!

but i think it’s a good thing- and your thoughts on what we surround ourselves with, the energy and the vibes, was almost word for word a conversation i had with my mum this afternoon! i love it when that happens. . . the synergy that’s flowing around the world right now is exhilarating!
I haven’t stopped by here in awhile, but i’m glad i’ve restumbled upon your lovely words and thoughts again!!
x jenny


Lindsay February 4, 2008 at 6:18 am

Right on my Soul Sistah! How wonderful, lovely and amazing you are. I can’t wait to see the results of your Bio-test. :)

I likewise don’t tend to be drawn to the tube, but the cinema, when its good is lovely…which is less and less these days.


aubrey September 7, 2012 at 8:04 pm

How much is it to get that test?


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