So, this morning, my mom and I, either were tested on our inner peace, needed a lesson in letting go, or we needed to burn some karma (anyone else heard the teaching that losing money is burning karma?)
I had a revelation in regards to emotional eating about a month ago. You know the slipups where you eat a whole jar of almond butter, or something a bit excessive that way?
Well, it occurred to me that I’m ready to let go of that. It was an odd revelation to realize that some part of me isn’t ready to completely stop emotional eating, but I am ready to stop those kinds of really excessive behaviors. Since then, I’ve felt so much clearer mentally, and my meditations have been so much deeper. True to my all-or-nothing tendencies, I had always felt angry at myself for any food eaten in excess, ever. I condemned everything from one extra bite, to a really excessively large meal.
When I realized there is a real part of me that is not healed enough yet to not overeat, and to not use food sometimes emotionally, but that I was ready to stop these semi-binges, something shifted. And it’s great! For me, the greatest reward of eating lighter and doing the work to break free of emotional attachment to food is a deeper feeling of connection to the Divine and Oneness that is, and deeper meditations.
Photo above by me of some my birthday cards